okay stupid blogger decided to crash on me! and now im blogging once more. bloody darn it! ugh so lets talk again.
had a stupid training today. a bloody 4hr training. and guess what?! i ran only 40mins out of the whole training. like HELLO?! wasted my time just hanging around sitting and talking. he was doing alot of talking as well as YELLING! wth. got darn pissed off! had a horrible training session. first practiced the 4x100m relay. i missed passing to mariam and we dropped the baton. next we were practicing the 4x200m passing. i was to pass to janah. she started too slow and she went a little into my side of the lane at the curve. i got a big shock and i jumped back! i mean i couldn't help it! and he yelled at me. told me to get out and get a substitute. got fu**ing pissed. tried not to cry. like what the hell. he cant seem to understand our feelings?! just shout at us. his words are so crude and harsh! ugh. so out the 4x200m team i went. went to the gym later even though it was SO LATE and they briefed us on SPH and he got pissed again and shouted again! why? cause we couldnt be uniformed. got pissed again. at the end he told me i'm still in the team. like phew but its like .... as well. ah well. got too pissed to bathe in school. and didnt wanna see school anymore so i went back unbathed :
enough bout school. gonna go for synergy later! (: yeah! planetshakers! weee. hope to meet ppl there! yupps. nothing much to say! toodles! (:
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2:25 pm
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
its already wednesday! :\ half the week is gone already. ahhhhh~ and soon it'll be back to the hectic lifestyle in school. sigh. SPH is just this weekend and i think i'm gonna screw it up. ughs. i'm paranoid la. oh well. better get back to studying hard if i wanna take my O's and go to a good school.
trained this morning as usual. was ultra slack today! teehees. maybe cause i took my time and they all followed? oops. hahas. went home myself. and believe it or not i was cleaning the WHOLE HOUSE by myself! can't believe i did that. goodness. anyway WALAA PEOPLE! all the best alright! you're gonna do yourself proud! (: go go go! all the way! will be cheering you people on! (: yuppies.
seeing everyone smiling and laughing gayly. when would it be my turn? am i a loner or am i just pathetic.
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9:24 pm
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
OMG! can you believe it! i have NOT been only and touched the computer and blogged and socialised for MORE THAN 1 WEEK! wow wow wow! i am so pro-ed. teehees. lets see. how was my week. i guess it was alright. had a few tests here and there. oh i just passed my E math?! and i did pretty well for A math. what an irony. hahas. oh wells. guess i better study harder mans. went to watch the little prince thingy. it was alright i guess. just that the mixture of chinese and english was like HELLO! irritating! got pulled around by sarah. had a lift home from nicole's mum and we had supper! lols. yeahh.
hols now. having training every morning! and the first day of training i was bloody late. had a punishment WHICH i did not carry out. lols. i know i lazy :P oh wells. and this weekend is SPH already! and i am so not phsyced up at all. ughs. just hope we can do a good time. gonna get freaked out. forgot to bring back my new balance track suit! shucks. i better get it tmr. better start on my hw too! bleah.
hanged out with mersa yesterday! haven't chatted or seen each other for MONTHS?! goshness and she's my NEIGHBOUR. wow. hahas. caught up with out laughter and nonsense. watched tv and played sims2 as usual! heehees. was fun! stayed there till around 8. did stuff we couldn't do when we were younger. hahas. guess there's nothing much to say. gotta sleep soon. training tmr! sigh. toodles! (:
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8:52 pm
Sunday, March 06, 2005
its back to school today. sighs. i don't feel like training. ughs. or studying. tests next week. chemistry, physics, social studies, math. math project due, english assignment due, and my math work which i haven't completed! ahhhh. sighs. i want to take my o's and be done with it! im seriously paranoid. sheesh.
had church service today. and funny told me that i'm making that annocement only today! ahh. made me frantic and i went bersark! i screwd it up LA! sighh. i was stammering and stammering. and i made a million mistakes. ughs. guess i'll do it better next time. gotta practice. oh mans. i feel so...
nothing much to say now! (: bye.
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4:36 pm
Saturday, March 05, 2005
hur hur. its almost sunday! (: back to church. yupps. feel guilty now cause i haven't been doing QT for the past 2 weeks! :/ oops. ahh well.. lets see. woke up bout 10 this morning. slacked around the whole day! and guess what? i'm supposed to be doing my homework and studying! AHHH~ guess its tmr then! oh wells. and i'm so stuffed up! feel like a turkey waiting to be served during a thanksgiving dinner. full... i so need to lose weight. ugh! okae. im paranoid. but im seriously eating too much. hur hur. had curry today! yummy! (: and i was a couch potato for the day! watched 2 vcd's today. watched two weeks notice and i forgot the other show title. was lame. but two weeks notice is hillarious! teehees. alrights i better get going! gotta get up for church tmr! tata.
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11:44 pm
Friday, March 04, 2005
im home! (: and i am glad im home. think i've been suffering from depression the whole week. had to study for stupid tests! and i panicked over chinese for no apparent reason! shucks. just hope i can score high enough to get me good results. heard i didn't do well in my first module! not one bit! sighh. guess there's no regretting. what's done has been done. i didn't have a great start, so lets just pray that i'll get great improvements! nothing's interesting at the moment unless you count the amount of times i'm complaining during training. its been raining and im glad of that! although it means us running 6-8 laps up and down the HARD corridor which contributes to the problems of my ankle and my calf! ughs. i just want pain to go away. whatever pain there is.
sighs. i just feel not up to standard. not what i should be doing. i think there's seriously something wrong with ME. its either im paranoid or i just love to see myself sad. whatever that is. forget it. i shall look on the bright side of life.
had some parent coach meeting today. was about having a track chalet at east coast! yupps. parents, coaches and trackers. 3 days 2 nights. and ((ahems)) dad is SO annoying! -sheesh. wussup with him man. whatever. had a lift to j8 from nicole's mum. ate dinner there and came back home. yuppies. nothing much to say. yupps. bye
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